Safe in the Arms of Jesus

Thursday afternoon Hannah went to be with Jesus where she is free from pain & suffering, in a brand new perfect body. She will be sorely missed.  <br>
 <br>After coming back from death's door on Wednesday night & remaining fairly stable over night, they decided to open up her chest again a bit & see if they could find out why the stuff going into the CVC seemed to be coming straight out the drain. They found a small hole in one of the suture lines from the op & repaired it. However they then noticed that her pupils were uneven sizes & a scan showed that she had suffered a massive bleed in the brain. There was nothing more that could be done for her & it was just basically the medicine & machines keeping her alive. So the decision was made to stop treatment & let her peacefully pass away. <br>
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It was all very calm and peaceful. I got to hold her during the process, surrounded by all our family. We had the CD "Hidden in my Heart" playing & as she took her last breaths, we switched to the song "Holding You" by Matt Hammitt. After she has gone a few of Tom's family prayed & a couple of people spontaniously started singing a couple of hymns. Then all our family left & Tom & I got to sit alone with her. We also got to wash her & dress her after they had removed all the drain etc & closed up her wounds. Then I got to hold her one last time & move about the room freely. Although she was dead & it really was more like holding a doll, I was so glad to be able to do it. <br>
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Joshua was there through it all & was quite affected. He could see everyone was upset, but couldn't understand why. He didn't know what to do or where to go. It also didn't help that he was quite tired. A couple of times he climbed up on my lap with Hannah, but didn't stay there very long. Eventually he settled & fell asleep in his cousin Daniel's lap. Although it was perhaps quite traumatic for him we felt it was important he was there so that it wasn't like Hannah had just disappeared & that when he does ask about her we can refer back to it & explain. We of course tried to explain it to him in simple terms at the time, but we are not sure exactly how much he understands. Despite the fact that he went  to see Hannah everyday & was quite attached to her, he has not mentioned her once yet since her death. We wonder if he sees our time in Skejby as being on holiday & Hannah as part of that.  So now we are home...<br>
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